I think I've had more than enough of the distance, I have already proven how strong my relationship is, and I am just ready to have my husband home. The time apart really makes me appreciate all of the little obnoxious things that Kenny would always do- the way he would tickle me, just to piss me off, him farting in the car (ok...I don't miss that), him joking with me and finding the humor in almost anything. Hell, I find myself lately needing that sense of humor more than anything, he could ALWAYS help me find the positive, or make a bad situation seem better. Today I was just thinking of him on leave, and the night before he had to go back I got sick. I'm sitting there in the doctors office with a fever, feeling like total shit. And what does my husband do? Grabs his camera and starts taking pictures of us. He makes light of my fever and goes "I got it! You're hot for me!". He is such a dork, he has the strangest sense of humor, and it's something I've come to appreciate the most.
Obviously I have come to more than appreciate how much he helps me with the house and with the kids, but it's all the things I don't think about that I miss the most. I get to hear his sense of humor over the phone and on the computer, but I want it in person.
I'm waiting for me to be back to feeling "normal", where I'm back to how it was a month ago. I can handle doing it on my own, but I am still hating the feeling of being alone. I mean, I never liked it, but I adjusted to it. And now it's back to my house feeling empty, my bed being empty (even with Caiden hogging it), my house just feels so out of balance with Kenny being gone. I don't think the balance will be restored for awhile.
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