I've been neglecting this blog lately. Actually I'm still neglecting a lot of things. Like right now I should be cleaning, but I'm taking down time instead. I have tons of school work I still need to do, and I've been slacking on that, and I have been for awhile.... I think it's a combination of a lack of motivation, and a lack of time.
I spent a majority of my week dealing with doctor appointments. Khloe had to go see her gastroenterologist, but it seems that her latest appointment has brought some relief and explanation to the issues she has been having. Hopefully she continues to make progress. Then she had her 6 month check up, she is still under weight, but growing, just very slow. And the doctor is addressing the issues with her eyes. So now she and Caiden will be going to see an ophthalmologist and I'm hoping that they will be able to do something to for her eyes because they are just getting worse and I feel so bad for my little baby.
And then I had to get an MRI, results came back clear, thankfully. At least that is one less thing to worry about.
Caiden is still Caiden, typical bad boy, not listening, defiant little monster that he is. I love him but he is driving me nuts he just loves to push my buttons. He's like his daddy, lol.
I'll update more later, for now, I need to clean some. I need to get something accomplished today! =/
Making it through, day by day.
Friday, September 16, 2011
Saturday, September 3, 2011
Another month down
I am so glad to see the month of August has ended, and September is here. I'm not sure what is going on lately but it really just seems that I am in a funk, and I can't get out of it.
I am overwhelmed, there is always so much to do, and there is never enough time to do it. I am so busy with the kids that I am falling behind with my school work, and I have realized that I really don't have time for me. Even if someone watches the kids, or takes just Caiden, I have so much to do I can't relax. I either have the house to clean, dishes to do, laundry to fold, the dog to take care of, or school work to do. I am so wrapped up in doing other things and worrying about maintaining my house that it seems like I don't even exist in my own life...if that makes any sense.
Caiden keeps me going all day, he is a ball of energy to say the least. Khloe is usually a happy, easy-going baby, but when she has her moments, things get so stressful. Beyond the fact that I have the random issues that come up with her. She woke up the other day screaming, I noticed her eye was swollen so off to the doctors we went. Three hours later that was handled, doctor says she has another eye infection, one more and she will have to see an eye doctor, she has dropped from the 25th percentile to the 15th percentile, her doctor thinks that it has to do with her not feeling well and not having much of an appetite (ignoring everything I have already addressed regarding Khloe's eating habits), so they want to follow up with that at her 6 month check up. That evening it's to the ER we go because Khloe hasn't ate throughout the day, the third time this has happened over the past few months, but her doctor attributes it to an eye infection, it's becoming so frustrating that no one is trying to help her. She has so much going on, but at least she is a generally happy baby.
Me? I'm ready to pull my hair out, I am ready for March, I am ready for this deployment to be over. I am ready to get this school work over and done with, I am ready to finally go to sleep at a normal hour, or be able to even take a shower in peace. I am ready to have time for me, and time to relax. And it doesn't seem that will happen anytime soon. I have seriously got to find a way to get my life into a normal routine, and I beg of you, September, please be kind, and please hurry the f up.
I am overwhelmed, there is always so much to do, and there is never enough time to do it. I am so busy with the kids that I am falling behind with my school work, and I have realized that I really don't have time for me. Even if someone watches the kids, or takes just Caiden, I have so much to do I can't relax. I either have the house to clean, dishes to do, laundry to fold, the dog to take care of, or school work to do. I am so wrapped up in doing other things and worrying about maintaining my house that it seems like I don't even exist in my own life...if that makes any sense.
Caiden keeps me going all day, he is a ball of energy to say the least. Khloe is usually a happy, easy-going baby, but when she has her moments, things get so stressful. Beyond the fact that I have the random issues that come up with her. She woke up the other day screaming, I noticed her eye was swollen so off to the doctors we went. Three hours later that was handled, doctor says she has another eye infection, one more and she will have to see an eye doctor, she has dropped from the 25th percentile to the 15th percentile, her doctor thinks that it has to do with her not feeling well and not having much of an appetite (ignoring everything I have already addressed regarding Khloe's eating habits), so they want to follow up with that at her 6 month check up. That evening it's to the ER we go because Khloe hasn't ate throughout the day, the third time this has happened over the past few months, but her doctor attributes it to an eye infection, it's becoming so frustrating that no one is trying to help her. She has so much going on, but at least she is a generally happy baby.
Me? I'm ready to pull my hair out, I am ready for March, I am ready for this deployment to be over. I am ready to get this school work over and done with, I am ready to finally go to sleep at a normal hour, or be able to even take a shower in peace. I am ready to have time for me, and time to relax. And it doesn't seem that will happen anytime soon. I have seriously got to find a way to get my life into a normal routine, and I beg of you, September, please be kind, and please hurry the f up.
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