Another month down

I am so glad to see the month of August has ended, and September is here. I'm not sure what is going on lately but it really just seems that I am in a funk, and I can't get out of it.

I am overwhelmed, there is always so much to do, and there is never enough time to do it.  I am so busy with the kids that I am falling behind with my school work, and I have realized that I really don't have time for me.  Even if someone watches the kids, or takes just Caiden, I have so much to do I can't relax. I either have the house to clean, dishes to do, laundry to fold, the dog to take care of, or school work to do. I am so wrapped up in doing other things and worrying about maintaining my house that it seems like I don't even exist in my own life...if that makes any sense.

Caiden keeps me going all day, he is a ball of energy to say the least. Khloe is usually a happy, easy-going baby, but when she has her moments, things get so stressful.  Beyond the fact that I have the random issues that come up with her.  She woke up the other day screaming, I noticed her eye was swollen so off to the doctors we went. Three hours later that was handled, doctor says she has another eye infection, one more and she will have to see an eye doctor, she has dropped from the 25th percentile to the 15th percentile, her doctor thinks that it has to do with her not feeling well and not having much of an appetite (ignoring everything I have already addressed regarding Khloe's eating habits), so they want to follow up with that at her 6 month check up.  That evening it's to the ER we go because Khloe hasn't ate throughout the day, the third time this has happened over the past few months, but her doctor attributes it to an eye infection, it's becoming so frustrating that no one is trying to help her.  She has so much going on, but at least she is a generally happy baby.

Me? I'm ready to pull my hair out, I am ready for March, I am ready for this deployment to be over. I am ready to get this school work over and done with, I am ready to finally go to sleep at a normal hour, or be able to even take a shower in peace.  I am ready to have time for me, and time to relax.  And it doesn't seem that will happen anytime soon.  I have seriously got to find a way to get my life into a normal routine, and I beg of you, September, please be kind, and please hurry the f up.